#2

第二最愛? 定係二等公民?

why do I always have to be #2?
maybe thats just what I'm used to...

always playing the supportive role
always the #1 fans...

but never #1 to you...


" you need stop offering yourself as backup"- 大哥

Don quoting Sasa...

昨天的錯換來今天的難過
今天的我悔恨當初做錯
難道今天的我再認錯已是太傻?

thoughts.feelings.choices.

because ultimately...we choose how we act

don't let moments of weakness in the past
dictate who you are now
but let those lessons learned
influence who you become in the future

sometimes, we all just need a HUG :)

cold, crappy, shitty monday...

feel like SH*T. but as advised by S8G..maybe I should say "I am a piece of" instead lol :P either way...feeling pretty crappy...just one of those days...

haven't been sleeping well this past week
so I woke up late this morning
RT wasn't running so had to take the bus

been having a lot of doubts about myself
about my values and morals
and how they play out and how it affects others
not a good feeling...

had a very interesting session today
with my supervisor
made me question my morals even more
then felt shittier than ever

maybe I'm not cut out for this job? :(
and the thought that it took me 2 years
and X dollars in tuition to discover this
really really made me hit rock bottom
*SPLAT*

no mood. felt like shit. headache.
left early.came home. ate.
had my own e-counselling session ;)
physically, emotionally, mentally DEFEATED

blasted some LEO
crawled into bed
hugged my bottle
took a 2 hour nap
(my own little therapy)

dinner. tv. msn.
nice long hot shower
time for bed again? @ 10:30pm?


just wanted to say thanks :)
even though you always say I don't have to
you always know what to say
not necessarily to make me feel BETTER
but to make me feel...
its OK to just be ME :)

as 271 said...tomorrow will be a better day!!!

OOSH :D

SUPER FANS!!! 甜心紛絲王

我叫做金水,

呢個係我太太蘇絲...

佢係鄭恩儀嘅忠實FANS兼私人助理,

而我就係我太太嘅忠實FANS兼私人助理...

...因為每人都要有自己嘅忠實FANS :)

on repeat: 鐘無艷

讓我決定我的快樂...

那須得你的允許 我都會愛下去
互相祝福心軟之際或者准我吻下去
我痛恨成熟到 不要你望著我流淚
但漂亮笑下去 仿彿冬天飲雪水

被你一貫的讚許 無須裝說下去
在你悲傷一刻必須解慰找到我樂趣
我甘於當副車 卻沒法撞入堡壘
彼此這麼了解 難怪註定似兄妹一對

你的她怎允許 結伴觀賞雪的淚
永不開封的汽水 讓我抱在懷內吻下去

self-care

having one of those days...

super tired and just need some ME time

need to learn how to take better care of myself
in many different ways...

NY resolution: get better :)

feel so much better :)

thanks for staying up to let me "process" lol :P
I know I can always count on you!!

feeling much better now...
being able to actually TELL someone was a first step

I guess you're right...nothing much to think about
everything is back to normal

back to normal... :)

消失鬥志 慶幸你一天安慰十次 ;)