cold, crappy, shitty monday...

feel like SH*T. but as advised by S8G..maybe I should say "I am a piece of" instead lol :P either way...feeling pretty crappy...just one of those days...

haven't been sleeping well this past week
so I woke up late this morning
RT wasn't running so had to take the bus

been having a lot of doubts about myself
about my values and morals
and how they play out and how it affects others
not a good feeling...

had a very interesting session today
with my supervisor
made me question my morals even more
then felt shittier than ever

maybe I'm not cut out for this job? :(
and the thought that it took me 2 years
and X dollars in tuition to discover this
really really made me hit rock bottom
*SPLAT*

no mood. felt like shit. headache.
left early.came home. ate.
had my own e-counselling session ;)
physically, emotionally, mentally DEFEATED

blasted some LEO
crawled into bed
hugged my bottle
took a 2 hour nap
(my own little therapy)

dinner. tv. msn.
nice long hot shower
time for bed again? @ 10:30pm?


just wanted to say thanks :)
even though you always say I don't have to
you always know what to say
not necessarily to make me feel BETTER
but to make me feel...
its OK to just be ME :)

as 271 said...tomorrow will be a better day!!!

OOSH :D