time to sleep...

makes me feel good that paper is done...and I get to sleep. oh, and very very youthful that I can still stay up till 3am to work on a paper! hehe. and um, just glad to have company :) hehehe...and now, looking forward to finishing my other paper..and then 1 more to go before reading week! woohoo~

k, good nite.

LJ & DL

Just spent a good couple of hours reading over what I wrote in my LJ and DL. haha, what a loser. I have 2 papers due this week (tm and wed) that I haven't worked on, and I spend the entire day reading over stuff I wrote in the past 4 years...sigh.

It was nice though. Reading those entries was like reliving those *youthful* days again. Some things I already forgot...and its nice to be reminded :) I find that I haven't really changed much, still the same schizophrenic tomato that I always am!

Should really get cracking on my papers...but really really not motivated.

It's going to be a longggg night...just like the LJ and DL days...only difference is, nobody else will be up with me to keep me company. [e-sigh, lol]

.t.i.r.e.d.

boo...so tired. I should work on my 2 papers but I'm so tired. I want to go to sleep. but if I sleep then I'll feel like I wasted my night. sigh, what to do...

well, just a quick recap, S&L Gala last night was a great success!! 770+ ppl and I think they raised a lot of $$$. the food wasn't all that great, but what can you expect? good company and a good cause. overall had an awesome night! :) thanks to cheryl, scarlett, suz, brian and siu bing for coming...and the unexpected friends at our table: candy, alice (?) and ernie :) good times, good times! took lots of pretty pics (and fai pics, haha) and can't wait to see brian, candy and john's pics...haha...our "fans" pics!! lol :P

feeling super duper tired today. went to 12pm mass at SAT and really really enjoyed the readings. something about the 1st and 2nd readings really touched me. I hope those messages will take me through this tough week :)

can't wait till reading week. haha, not like I'm DOING anything, but the thought of it is reassuring LOL. and then it will be CNY!! cha-ching. btw, cheaps are we still going with the 50/50 plan? lol :P

oh, and a last big THANK YOU to my Clement for getting me the Juicy Lemon DVD :) you're the best!!!!! hehe~ and can't wait to try your not-so-spicy-curry fishballs :P

"it was so...platonic"

ding ding ding! what an epiphany!!

Pickle, although you're a DUMB GUY (haha) I think you made a very "wise" comment today. Good for you (y)

It seems like I found the answer to all my questions. Everything in the past 2 years can be summed up in one word: PLATONIC.

when I thought we were simple...no, we were platonic.
when I thought we understood each other so we didn't argue...no, we were platonic.
when I thought we really wanted to make an effort to stay friends...no, its cuz we're platonic.

no "agape" no "eros"...just, PLATONIC.

sigh, a 2 year platonic relationship. waste of time? no...I guess I learned a lot from it. haha, just (yn) that the next one won't be like that :P

maybe deep in my heart, I always knew it but I never dared face it. Props to Rod for figuring it out and being brave enough to do something about. Thanks sor lo :) haha, cuz I know you read my blog :P

One last thing...haha, THANKS JEROME for the "virtual slap"...omg, its awesome!! :D

someone...please...slap me.

ok, if you are my friend and you are reading this, please leave me a comment and tell me you'll slap me. I feel like the dumbest person on the face of this earth!!!!!!!!! argh.

PLEASE.SLAP.ME.

I want to be able to sleep at night. I want to be able to eat and enjoy food the way I used to. I want to laugh and play and be spontaneous again. I miss being ME.

I don't like being so schizo...sigh.

be strong.

原來傷懂追我 不必去躲

today is the first...but it won't be the last.

be strong, wuss. be strong!! *oosh*

you are the reason...

cheaps ;) thanks for the shoulder...to lean on and punch (haha) and for um, letting me scream in your car? for singing alllll those songs with me (and not singing the right lyrics! lol) and just for making me who I am..."you're strong becuz of you"..."ya, but I'm who I am becuz of YOU!" I love you man~

BB thanks for holding me and crying with me and letting me be "weak" (haha) thanks for listening and understanding and (hehe) pounding the chair!! and thanks for offering me the master bedroom!! wahahaha...^_^

hun thanks for letting me bite you (ewww) thanks for the comfy shoulder and telling me in the smartest way (haha, henry should learn, eh?) that you'll beat him for me!! most of all, thanks for your "I'm here for you...always" :)

leo the innocent one...thanks for offering your Valentines Day for me!! hahaha, thanks for coming out, and thanks for taking on the courageous task of singing "ging gor gum kok" hahahaha :P

sil "you better be good to BB...or else!!" hahaha...thanks for you friendship and love and understanding, but most of all..thanks for your agreement to "yeung" me!! hohohho~

*you* can't hide anything from you as much as I try to...and I feel SOOOOO much better after talking to you :) one day we'll have to go through with our "plan" haha but really its not worth it. I just want to say thanks YOU and I love YOU~ and um, I hope you were able to get up this morning! *hon*

siu bing bing thanks for "um-ing" me to sleep HAHAHA and for your 5 little questions and allowing me to "relive" some old memories!! teehee~ thanks for just being there and being you! and thanks for being my "date" lol

grapie thanks for spending time with me and letting me know that friends do care and love me :) I guess I can't steal you from Jeffy so ya...haha and since I didn't tell you before, you did a great job reading at mass! proud of you!!

mommie so far away...but always close at heart. thanks for just being the "mother" that you always are...looking out for me and agreeing to take part in illegal activities together! hehe, next time we drink, henry will be the designated driver so we'll all get home safely :)

handsome for just being my friend :) because that means the world to me~ put everything in His hands, right? Pray for each other!

to everyone else in my life...for just being there and letting me know that someone cares and loves me. what more can I ask for? love you all~

and to my IDOL ...don't be lazy la! update ha your blog so I can 818 :P lol and um, of course I care about you, you are my IDOL!!!! take care man~ we both take care :)

重複犯錯 + Touch

不知你　難過寂寞
聽到你說　毫不快樂
令我想　我這一生
往後娛樂　亦難快樂

如若我還尊重愛情
無謂問那次飛關島暢泳
其實你　找不到任何的高興

也許跟我吃喝進睡
會一生都使你有陰影　但求要逃命
彷彿以往接吻過程 無異於吻過路人
所以細雪無聲

突然之間很喜歡你恨我　
我從未愛到　要生生死死那麼多　
結束感情最悲壯結果　
原來似　以掌心撲火　

未算得到　偏得到你是哪位錯　
難道你我以相戀失戀去切磋　
會令情侶受苦已是愛　
但我答應我永不要重複犯錯

最慘戀愛會有過程
到沙灘多一次看星星　亦難以償命
當初與你有過愛情
同樣一吻有任何反應　已結成冰

如若我還尊重愛情
我會放棄了呼吸般鎮定
唯望你　吻別時做回些反應
沒有感情不怨命

回味過去每一吻
真切得　於嘴邊掠過
你的內心竟在避我

In the most positive light...this song is a perfect depiction of my feelings. Feeling kind of confused right now as to what I am supposed or not supposed to say/do. I just hope that everything will turn out ok in the end :)

喂一聲 這一聲 你認得出我麼?
這親暱到陌生的經過
我說過 最愛抱你 到這日你想閃躲
怕了我 但是我 自問我哪有做錯~
當日離開我 沒說別接觸這麼多 誰知驚我甚麼
只願容許我 造作地說聲 "Keep in touch" 還想得到甚麼?

kinda miss my old DL...and this comic strip

:)

wow, so people actually still read this blog? hahaha...I'm amazed!!

maybe I should make a bigger effort to update more often (you know, so people bored at work in the middle of the night can have something to read...instead of thinking about silly things :P)

well well, what to say? no heat/hot water again. no wonder I'm sick. boo, what a way to start the new year, eh? but as I said in my previous post, I am determined to take better care of myself this year :) yes, take better care of MEEEEEE!!! hahaha

when I was walking to the VIVA stop from kinsmen after class today, it was only 5:30pm and the skies were pitch black. then I was thinking to myself..man, how am I going to last the whole winter with my night courses that end at 10pm?? reminded me of the days at ward when Arn and I would walk home from school EVERY DAY no matter rain or shine (or snow!) now, I just feel too OLD to do that...haha, even a short 10mins walk is like, forever -_-"

I'm feeling very happy today :) hehe, just wanted to share that with you~

2007. new year. new beginning.

I have a feeling this year will be different :) I look forward to all the things that the new year is about to bring. I thank all my friends and family for being a part of my life and contributing to each day to make it extra special. I love you all~

Is it true that everyone has their own safety net? I don't know why but when I opened those boxes in my room and saw my entire Leo CD collection in front of me (haha, this sounds so corny!) I felt a certain comfort...of knowing that I'm not alone. Although my speakers aren't working and I don't have a CD player, just laying my eyes on the cds was enough. Each song just started playing in my head and I kinda drifted back to that little "sheltered place" that Leo was always able to provide for me. Thanks dai lo. I love you :)

During New Years' mass, Fr. Fu challenged us to make our resolution this year "to be a better Catholic". To be more humble and loving, just like our Holy Mother. It was a beautiful way to start the new year. Must remember: love + humility. I think I should start by learning to love and take care of myself. 愛自己 :)

School starts again tomorrow (boo York!) but its my last "official" term. I still have 1 course to take in summer school before my practicum and then by this time next year, I'll be done my BSW. Really want to plan a trip back to HK to visit my grandparents and the rest of the family. Originally wanted to go back in April, but depending which term my course is offered, maybe I can go back in July :) that way, I'll have company..hehehe.

Don't know if anyone still reads this blog (haha) but just wanted to wish everyone a HAPPY and JOYFUL New Year :) May God continue to bless each one of us, and may we continue to be instruments of His peace~